what up wit it vannilla face?

Sometimes the Army can be so frustrating! And it always seems like whatever can happen happens to you. I have been waiting for my hubands orders and of course everyone else in his platoon got theirs but him. The anticapation is killing me! I really hope we get stationed at Ft.Carson. I have a good friend there and it would be nice to have someone I know there to show me the ropes, so I dont fall flat on my face at this whole Army wife thing. Its hard to talk to anyone but her about anything because everyone thinks they know everything about the Army and try to tell you things that dont make any sence. In the back of your mind your thinking, where in the hell did you get that information? Its even kinda hard to talk to her sometimes about it because so much has changed even since her husband has went through bootcamp, only a year ago. I hate being away from my husband. Not only did my husband leave, but my best friend as well. He is the only person I trust with alot of my secrets, I have been burned way to many times in the past to reach out to anyone else. I have all these things I want to tell him all the time, but instead I have to focus on writting inspirational things to keep him on the right track. Plus he is missing out on so much with our daughter and It kills me to know that he is doing all this for a family he hardly sees. Really its not fair, but I dont think anything about the Army is. You know they dont even let you fill out a dream sheet anymore? They're just like your going to this place wether you like it or not. My husband says his unit is either going to Hawaii, Washington, or Colorado. Ive come to terms with that so really any place wouldnt bother me, but I would LOVE to go to Washington. Washington is such an amazing state! It is so beautiful and I absolutely love the rain! But like I previuosly stated, you never get what you want so we will probably end up going to hawaii.