Day One... Wow Im outta shape!

So yesterday was day one of my journey to loose 100lbs. I cant believe how out of shape I really am, I could only do 10 lunges on each leg and 10 squats and Im paying for it today. As for my cardio I went for an hour long walk. And my meals were as follows: breakfast, a low fat yogurt and half a banana. Lunch a lean cusine. Snack, rasins, veggie chips and a sting cheese. Dinner, lean cusine. I feel great! Im very proud of my first day. No if I could just shake this headache then I will be good to go.

2 days until I begin my journey...frustrated!

So I have 2 days until I begin my journey, today Im going to make my wall of motivation: a chart to track my progress, my goals, exercise regiment, HUGE pictures of my before pictures and most importantly, a full legnth mirror. Then Im going to make a food log and prepare a area in my kitchen to keep that, vitamins and my book of calories. Organize my fridge so that all the sauces, juices, butter and other items with alot of fat are in the back and easily accessable snacks and healthy choices are towards the front. Im also going to try to find or invent some excersises to do while cleaning, I spend around 3 hrs a day doing that so if I could find a way to excersise while I clean, that would help me get the most out of my workouts.
I can do this!!

OUCH!

So I went back to the doctors for the first time in like 3 months today and wasnt happy with the numbers. I weigh more now than I did the first time I tried to diet. And because its important to me to tell the truth, Im really going to write how much I weigh...277. I know ouch! Im not exactly sure how I got this way, but I do know one thing. Im not going to stay this way! Im not going to condem myself to fat prison for the rest of my life. So starting the 29th is going to be my 180, I HAVE to do this right this time. For me and my family, they deserve 100% of me. I deserve 100% of me. So here it goes.GOAL: 100 lbs DEADLINE: 03-29-2011. Wish me luck.

My heart feels like its going to explode

my husband leaves for Iraq in 3 days and instead of him being here spending time with us. He is stuck at the barracks cleaning, I hate it I hate it I HATE IT! I feel like we are gonna loose ourselves because of all the time we have been spending apart in the past year. He spent 5 months at bootcamp, I get to see him for a month and he leaves again for 6 months. Not only that but he leaves me here with this car that needs to be fixed. Im frustrated, scared, lonely I just wish I had someone here with me. I dont know anyone at all and I feel all alone on this base. At least I have my daughther.
I need some antidepressants

What diet now?

So I had started this with the intention of it being about weightloss. Well since I moved to Washington things have gotten a little...off track and I gained back all the weight I lost. Im not sure exactly where my numbers are, after I go to the doctors I shall have a better plan and better figures to start out with this time. I hope to have a more detailed blog by then. Seeing as how Im going to be having alot more time on my hands since my husband will be leaving for 6 months. SCARY since Im all alone now and there is no one here that I know. I'll make it through Im a tuff cookie. The plus side of things is that it will make it possible to concentrate on my weightloss to take my mind off my husband and my husband to take my mind off my weightloss. 9 days until resuming my diet
oh boy

Another formation uuggghhh!!!

Finally in tune with technology, somewhat.
Learning everything all over again without the help of my bestfriend this time.
9 days until my husband leaves for Iraq, hardly see him anymore.
enough grease, my stomach will thank me.
Am I finally an adult?
Im scared!